"....because I never get picked", he said with a sarcastic smile. I, on the other hand, did get picked most times in life. It may not have turned out to be a good thing always, but I did get picked. I knew tonight I would get picked and so I put extra thought and render utter sincerity into answering the question on a 6 X 2 inch note. I wanted to preserve the sanctity of the occasion and respect audience's intelligence about circumstances. I wrote down the truth, simple and naked. I hadn't made it up and it wasn't allowed either.
Most people took a positive route for the theme tonight - "Pushed", but like most times in life, I chose the negative route. "Why sugarcoat the truth while confessing it to yourself?", I thought. I had the anonymity working in my favor and I was glad I wrote it down exactly as it was.
The host began jubilantly,"Currently..... ", and I realized I was picked. I heard her say the words out loud exactly as I had written them. Each of the 14 words clutched my heart mercilessly but what made it bleed was the reaction from the audience. It was a brutal validation.
The crowd managed a collective 'awww' and followed it by a sympathetic 'oooooohhh'. A tear rolled down my face onto the t-shirt, one I purchased 10 minutes back. Thank god for the anonymity.
Most people took a positive route for the theme tonight - "Pushed", but like most times in life, I chose the negative route. "Why sugarcoat the truth while confessing it to yourself?", I thought. I had the anonymity working in my favor and I was glad I wrote it down exactly as it was.
The host began jubilantly,"Currently..... ", and I realized I was picked. I heard her say the words out loud exactly as I had written them. Each of the 14 words clutched my heart mercilessly but what made it bleed was the reaction from the audience. It was a brutal validation.
The crowd managed a collective 'awww' and followed it by a sympathetic 'oooooohhh'. A tear rolled down my face onto the t-shirt, one I purchased 10 minutes back. Thank god for the anonymity.
" It’s a very brave person that does something anonymously." - Joan Holloway
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