I am returning to you after 4 years and things have changed beyond what I set out to accommodate for. I just watched an interview of a famous actor ( who shall remain nameless), she inspires me each time with her "acceptance" of circumstances. (I believe and agree that "actor" is a unisex term.)
Oceans apart from my family, things demand me to be stronger than I want to. It's a luxury to be held when you are down or be a call away from people who can take care of things you've ruined. Allow me to digress into the emotional whirlwind one faces each day but are oblivious of it and live in denial when with others. To be able to attend to your emotional needs is the biggest freedom one can have. Let me explain....
I remember breaking down during my exams years ago ( and now) and wanting to vent my anxiety through tears, but then I would remind myself I don't have time for it then. This precisely is not only harmful but robs you of the opportunity to attend to yourself.
Now I understand. I respect the lows. I respect the rejections. I respect things not working out. I respect the importance of being knocked hard enough. Now I give myself the time to absorb, swallow, drink a glass of water and be normal. I stop questioning the distress and instead help myself organically ( my new favorite word!) live and win out of it.
The actress mentions the sporadic motivations that got her where is she is, and the importance of hitting the rock bottom periodically, She explains how the problems are never big but reactions dramatized. The calmness with which she narrates her way up makes us judge her testing times to be less challenging.
I am easily excitable ( news flash!) and react to happiness and sadness in extremes. The interview inspired me to cherish the extremes and celebrate or detest it with self on a milder note. Arch explained me and I weave them into words " we are the choices we make" , now I weave what my mother has been trying to explain " learnings from your experience are pure, don't share, be judged and pollute".
Oceans apart from my family, things demand me to be stronger than I want to. It's a luxury to be held when you are down or be a call away from people who can take care of things you've ruined. Allow me to digress into the emotional whirlwind one faces each day but are oblivious of it and live in denial when with others. To be able to attend to your emotional needs is the biggest freedom one can have. Let me explain....
I remember breaking down during my exams years ago ( and now) and wanting to vent my anxiety through tears, but then I would remind myself I don't have time for it then. This precisely is not only harmful but robs you of the opportunity to attend to yourself.
Now I understand. I respect the lows. I respect the rejections. I respect things not working out. I respect the importance of being knocked hard enough. Now I give myself the time to absorb, swallow, drink a glass of water and be normal. I stop questioning the distress and instead help myself organically ( my new favorite word!) live and win out of it.
The actress mentions the sporadic motivations that got her where is she is, and the importance of hitting the rock bottom periodically, She explains how the problems are never big but reactions dramatized. The calmness with which she narrates her way up makes us judge her testing times to be less challenging.
I am easily excitable ( news flash!) and react to happiness and sadness in extremes. The interview inspired me to cherish the extremes and celebrate or detest it with self on a milder note. Arch explained me and I weave them into words " we are the choices we make" , now I weave what my mother has been trying to explain " learnings from your experience are pure, don't share, be judged and pollute".
